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Bashing Myself, but Ending on a Light Note :-)
Sleeping - Eternal Sunshine
hgolightly88
I'm not sleeping. It's almost 5:00 am, and I'm awake. I will try to fall asleep after this. Bleh.

I've been making a lot of negative comments towards myself lately. There are so many physical and emotional traits I keep nit-picking at. It's addicting to find faults. I dislike so many things, I can't help myself sometimes! :-P

What I need to do, is just be accepting of my own flaws. Goodness knows we've all got them, though it seems I'm more harsh about my own (which is only natural). Bleh.

Steffan tells me wonderful compliments and I can't help but think, "I sure wish I could see what you see."   He does make a difference though. I don't really doubt his words. I believe he believes those things, which makes me happy. It's my own perspective of myself that's screwy. I sometimes think I'm slowly improving as a person ... it's just a really slow process. And I'm not very patient with myself. Grrrr. But, I have to be.

On a happier note, I'm pretty content with how things have been going socially and whatnot. I'm thankful for the friends I've been surrounding myself with and for the frequent phone calls with my mom. And, I'm thankful for Steffan. We've been doing really well <3. Gotta be thankful, right?

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At any rate, I sympathize with your situation.

I know it can be hard to knock yourself out of being negative. Just remind yourself that all I ever hear from people is that you are an amazing person. They dont get why you see yourself the way you do.

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